me.

The night sweats an terrors are fuckin real , yo. Is it all just trauma resurfacing?

I like being transparent and honest, so I will say being on the medications I am on now has really changed my mind. I was always under the

Someone told me you don’t have to do anything you don’t want to, and I felt that. Then society told me I can’t because it won’t heal you or is right. So here I am not staying home, avoiding the situation that makes me upset, because it’s a holiday and I’m married into it. I […]

When I’m stressed out, then anxiety, then the depression voices…I completely shut down. My hands go numb or tingle, my heart races, my arm..

I recently decided I need a diagnosis. My entire life has gone by, I am in my 40s, and have always felt out of place. I don’t even know who

This is how I function when I want to do something I really enjoy by myself. There is this beautiful river 20 minutes from where I live.

I just quit my job. This was the job I planned to “retire” at. A place that once gave me a sense of purpose and stability.

As a child, I was kicked out of a doctors office because I was “so bad.” Screaming, crying, and throwing fits didn’t get me far at all.

Once, a neighbor said to my mother, “You know she walks down the street with her head down, right?” All the kids are playing, and she just walks by them with her head down.” It was 9 houses from where my mother lived to my grandparents . 9 houses. A 2 minute stroll that this […]

I deleted my facebook account that I had since the beginning of time. I needed a fresh start. Sick to my stomach constantly about having to see old memories that I removed personally. Along with all this came “friends” that I didn’t add back, either. One in partictular, “THE cool kid,” from childhood. For some […]

Finding the solution in something is so exhilarating! It makes me feel as if I’m a superhero with my chin up and arms on my hips, proud.