My only explanation for anything happening in the US right now is a result of pedophiles and brainwashing. Trump is literally keeping his name "clean" while blackmailing powerful people to gain more power & money. From brainwashing his followers, to trying to take over his own government, to protecting billionaires & pedophiles, to now starting wars... any other person would have been impeached & removed years ago. The immorality, inhumane decisions & lies that have taken o

The night sweats an terrors are fuckin real , yo. Is it all just trauma resurfacing?

I like being transparent and honest, so I will say being on the medications I am on now has really changed my mind. I was always under the

Someone told me you don’t have to do anything you don’t want to, and I felt that. Then society told me I can’t because it won’t heal you or is right. So here I am not staying home, avoiding the situation that makes me upset, because it’s a holiday and I’m married into it. I […]

Tell me about the incompetence in the food industry today. OK, I will just tell you. I door dash currently while I’m dealing with my healing process, so I am always out and about. Starbucks and Burger King are literally the worst place to come to. The workers will literally stand there until you ask […]

I have realized that whenever I have a breakdown aka meltdown I come out of it with a new hairstyle. I have had short hair since I was 18,

I love writing I just can never get to starting. My mission today is to set a routine for myself to write and design, Wednesdays & Thursdays. Monday when I can. This way I am not feeling overwhelmed leading to just shutting down and hiding in my house for a week. blah. …already distracted… Back […]

One of the counselors I went to briefly asked me, “In your perfect world, what would make you completely happy?” Of course I panicked and

4 people are here, including myself. It is so overwhelming. Everyone talks at once, 3 people talking usually about something different, and then ask me a question in the middle of it and I literally don’t even know what conversation to listen or focus on, let alone answer any questions or continue any conversation. Then […]

When I’m stressed out, then anxiety, then the depression voices…I completely shut down. My hands go numb or tingle, my heart races, my arm..

You know the people that constantly have to make conversation? They will literally randomly tell me a story about some guy from 20 years ago just because the room is quiet. It drives me insane! It’s quiet! Shut up! It’s like this nervous twitch. Making noise makes them comfortable, but me extremely uncomfortable. I’m 100% […]

I’m hitting burn out bad. I can’t even write this because things are needed of me. I can’t fucking breathe anymore. Oh, it’s a bad day. Oh..

I recently decided I need a diagnosis. My entire life has gone by, I am in my 40s, and have always felt out of place. I don’t even know who

This is how I function when I want to do something I really enjoy by myself. There is this beautiful river 20 minutes from where I live.

I just quit my job. This was the job I planned to “retire” at. A place that once gave me a sense of purpose and stability.

As a child, I was kicked out of a doctors office because I was “so bad.” Screaming, crying, and throwing fits didn’t get me far at all.

Once, a neighbor said to my mother, “You know she walks down the street with her head down, right?” All the kids are playing, and she just walks by them with her head down.” It was 9 houses from where my mother lived to my grandparents . 9 houses. A 2 minute stroll that this […]

I deleted my facebook account that I had since the beginning of time. I needed a fresh start. Sick to my stomach constantly about having to see old memories that I removed personally. Along with all this came “friends” that I didn’t add back, either. One in partictular, “THE cool kid,” from childhood. For some […]

Imagine driving 55 to 60 on the thruway, which is slow in most places, in the right lane with onramps every couple minutes.

Over the last two years I have become overwhelmed with how dangerous and inconsiderate people are on the roads.